I was 22 and in a psychiatric hospital. I then on my travels found out about the free presbyterian church of scotland whom I'm now back with following about 5 or 6 years with the Free Church of Scotland (continuing) whom I left because the minister was insistant I should be in residential care and wouldn't take no for an answer and I'm like "Nope I need a job!" and whom I'm now petrified of (I'm sure he's a Jesuit!). I find my walk challenging with it's many ups and downs. I enjoy good fellowship even if my concentration to read is not fabulous.

My christian walk these days is a path of childlike trust and obedience to his word as I seek my healing. Please by all means leave a comment on here and don't be put off by the 'illness'. I've been getting so much better this summer but I'm still suffering with anxiety which is awful.

I'm now at the point whereby I am terribly lonely and long for someone to make tea and clean for. Not that singleness doesn't have it's blessings either. I live in a flat (apartment) in a high rise with troublesome ppls. The flat is well designed and the views are amazing! However, if the Lord wills and in his time, marriage or contentment will happen. Godliness with contentment is great gain. That it what I long for wherever the Lord places me. It is not good for man to live alone.

The reality - asides from the fantasy (see above) is that I'm destined to be alone till the hallucinations and delusions have ceased. But I am NOT alone because Christ is with me constantly. I know it's not good for us to be alone but for some of us this is where God has placed us and we are not to grumble but to live i obedience to him. I sometimes wonder if marriage and children is just a wordly scam whereby you marry aged 28, and are divorced by 38! I am on here for friendship and prayer support mostly as I seek to fully recover from my disability.

Oh boy! Christ of course and his name being honoured? Do you want a second? Artistic stuff but not modern art. The only modern art I like is pics of my house mess/portraits of litter (trash). It speaks a lot about modern society and sin if you get what I mean? I taught myself to crochet about 10 years ago and I've recently taught myself to knit.. Oh and I HATE lying with a passion cos I used to do that a lot before being saved.

I am also passionate about caring and rehabilitating the homeless and the drug addicts (and alchoholics) and would like to see more programs of that ilk in our reformed churches.

Psalms psalms psalms! Psalm 37 . Psalm 31 and Psalm 3 and Psalm 117 because it's a tad eccentric. Psalm 46 and Psalm 103 must surely be added to this list after my recent relapse. But there are so many good psalms I could go on and on! I don't mind the AV or the Scottish Metrical but I LOVE singing the Scottish Metrical. As I often say. When John Knox was in the galleys it wasn't the 16th C (or was it 17th C) version of Wannabe by the Spice Girls - it was Psalm 6 that sustained him. So movies are no more than passing paper boats in the night. Books are just passing ships (other than the open bible which is permanently by God's grace accessible). Hymns - bar humbug. IT'S GOT TO BE PSALMS!

Also what does wordly entertainment do but serve to take our minds and souls away from that of worshipping God so I shun it and I try to keep the Sabbath holy etc.etc. So no/little internet, no radio, no tv (I got rid of mine on July 7th 2009) etc.etc.